I am For You

I'm a woman now Father, and there are lots of things that I missed in growing up. I cannot remember the first time I opened my eyes, the first word I uttered, my first step when I finally learned how to walk...but You do. I cannot remember the time when I learned how to write, or the first music that I learned to sing, I remember how excited I am to explore the world but I don't know how many times I fell...but You do. 
You remember my first smile, my first haircut and the way I cry as a baby. You knew me ever since, You know my weaknesses and my strength, You made me just as I am. You gave me this weakness because You know that I can become strong in the process of overcoming the weakness. You made me exactly who I am today because for You, I am beautiful.


Right now, I wake up each day knowing that there are things that must be done, responsibilities to attend to, work that must be finished...and I'm wondering... How do you look at me now?
I still fear spiders, bugs and other crawling creatures. I fear being lonely, I fear rejection, but You never get tired of being there. You never get tired of calling my name, telling me to be brave and sending me help. How many times have I felt neglected, ignored by the people around me. But You...You gather me in Your arms each time I'm broken and heal my soul. You never leave me alone or let me hit the ground each time I fall.


Now I know, I am for You. Even if I fail You, even if Your heart is bleeding for my failures. You are with me, in every step that I take, each time I close my eyes...and You remain strong when I am weak. Your hand never left mine when I was running away from You. You waited patiently even when I was hiding my heart. Forgive me Father, but now that everything is gone You remained. Your grace is enough...and Your love for me costs Your beloved. Who am I that He has to die for me?


I am for You...Even if You have everything, even if You are sovereign...You still want me and You never stopped until I am Yours. Now... I am Yours and Yours alone completely.